Sad
December 3, 2009 by jhbprincess
Tonight I’m sad. A very sad sad kind of sad. Yet a sad which I can’t seem to let myself feel.
It feels like i just can’t open up and cry. Like something is holding me back. Stopping me.
If I don’t think about her not being here. It’s okay. And I’ll be okay. And we’ll be okay.
But that makes me more sad. And disappointed in myself. Because she meant more. She deserves the tears.
I don’t have time for tears right now. Nor do i have the energy.
If I put it to the back of my mind…. it’ll get easier to deal with. Time heals. Softens the memory. Won’t it? Doesn’t it?
I am so so so so very sorry Shelby.
And mom, dad, little brother – I wish I could take this pain away for all of us.
Hey…
RIP Shelby.
Its very strange. The memory lingers on for ages.
My parents had a Staffie… Empress Club. She was a little beauty. I had just finished school when they bought her, so she was very much part of my life.
Fast Forward – Move out – but everytime you go back home, she’s there.. Happy. Then one day she’s gone.
Its been a year, and I still open the door and expect to find her.
Give it some time, watch Marley and Me in tribute. It’ll get out every emotion … and then some.