I love them, look up to them, draw strength from them… The are incredible people.

So, finding a pic of one – well… i kinda thought it wasn't possible.

But over this weekend… pondering this – i realised something… that the perfect pic to put up here… would be of myself and my brother. Because… not only is he everything to me which a friend is. We happen to be bonded by blood.

Of the few things i am dead sure of in this life… one of them happens to be the fact that – my brother will always be there for me, no matter what.

And that makes him my BFF.

It's a pretty strange feeling… i'm attempting to work thru it. Listing what's on my mind

• The next in the photo challenge is a photo of your best friend.. i don't know if i have one of these.. my friends are all amazing, and very special to me. I have many many photo's of me, because well… taking pics of myself is a new hobby, but of me + BFF, well no. What shall i do here..
• The next thought on the BFF front is… i seem to be losing girlfriends… naturally i have to ask myself… i am the common factor here – what do i do… and do i need to actively go out and find new girlfriends… And shall i call the good Dr about this problem..
• And then i think…. fuck it… I'm a little tired of noticing my short comings and working on them – i'll think about this tomorrow…
• I'm going for a massage tomorrow, this excites me greatly. ehm.
• This work is doing my fucking head in. It's not that i can't do it, it's that really… it's awful. But we must do what we must do. The stress is huge.. drama drama… and all that shit..
• But really – what the fuck does it REALLY matter… tomorrow the sun will shine, and eveyone has their issues, and to them they feel so BIG and IMPOSSIBLE..but hey – at the end of the day, christmas will arrive, and so will next year…and the year after that. So, just make today count. No point in hiding behind the drama. It's constant. This is life.
• WHY do the buttons KEEP on coming off this top. I'm not a sewing kinda girl.. and i've ALREADY put two buttons back.
• The panties i'm wearing today are awful… in fact, they might jsut have to GO. now.
• How is it that no one told me about Hipstamatic before… or rather why is it i never LISTENED when i was told how amazing this it…?! I just LOVE it… And am having SO much fun with it.
• The Vag Wax is amazing.. i am loving it. Obsessively so.. in fact, i think i may have entered into a little sexomnia. Or maybe masturatomnia…

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

Nope, the feeling is still there.

Maybe i'm confusing it with hunger… maybe i need lunch.

I have no idea where this was taken.. but we were both a lot younger here… i doubt 10 years younger.. in fact, i know not 10 years.. maybe 5…?! i just can't be assed to look for 10 years.

My gorgeous Jimmy Choo's… which were a gift from my Aunt for my graduation. Could she Rock ANY MORE?! An aunt who gives her neice Jimmy Choo's as a grad gift?!

Now and again, the brother and I commute together, because we're 'green' that way…  Sometimes i get bored in these trips..too much communication between family members is not ALWAYS good.. so we 'Car Model'… That would be the Mini BLue Steel look.

Has returned to normal. I am with iPhone once more.

And a new one at that.

*sigh*

Dear Life Gods,

Thanks for the insurance help, can we do something about the stress eating a whole in my stomach, now please?

Love,
JHBP

I've been busy.

Not sexy stuff busy… okay – maybe a little of that. 

But more – life busy… there is just so very much going on… And well – i should blog it… because committing things to my blog – makes my life clearer… but there's just SO much. Where does a girl start…?! {of course… one point at a time…}

• I have started a Shape run 10km's in 12 weeks challenge. And it's going quite well…
• The job search continues, i've had some good advice on this topic – it excites me as much as it scares me. But as i like to remind myself late at night in the bath – millions do it all the time… so can i.
• I have taken to bathing every single night. I'm not implying that i've never bathed before.. i'm more of a mornings shower kinda girl… These days, i shower in the mornings.. AND i bath at night. 
• The family doesn't know about the job search as yet. Why rock the already rocky boat?
• The family doesn't know about the european adventure. See above.
• I had the Most amazing 11 June Soccer World Cup Friday adventure ever.
• I take 100's of photo's these days… of myself, coffee cups, boots, bags, people, the sky… I have over 2000 photo's on my phone at the moment.
• I am going thru a Slight to Medium quarterly life crisis at the moment. *sigh*
• I want a new iPhone.. it doesn't need to be the 4….a 3GS would make me happy enough.
• I'm wondering if the new phase of my life, requires a new blog. Look back, my blogs only really have a 2 year shelf life.

Dear readers…. do let me know if any of these points require elaboration…. I'm in a talking mood…

1. What’s your favorite Dr. Seuss book?
Green Eggs and Ham…?!

2. If you could live in any home on a television series, what would it be?
Hmmmmmm…. South Fork of course..

3. What’s the longest you’ve gone without sleep?
Who knows..?! 24 hours.. i don’t make a habit of this.. i am tres grumpy and cranky with out sleep.

4. What’s your favorite Barry Manilow song?
Copacabana of course!!

5. Who’s your favorite Muppet?
I can’t say i have an opinion on this topic?!

6. What’s the habit you’re proudest of breaking?
lol.. i have no idea?! Obsessively masturbating with a vibrator?!

7. What’s your favorite website?
Twatter.. google… no wait.. My blog.

8. What’s your favorite school supply?
Ummm…stationary?!

9. Who’s your favorite TV attorney?
Will of course!!

10. What was your most recent trip of more than 50 miles?
Hmmm… Could it have been that trip to the middle of now where with the Aunt?!

11. What’s the best bargain you’ve ever found at a garage sale or junk shop?
Who knows.. i’m constantly looking for these… Being Bargain Betty and all..

12. Where were you on September 11, 2001?
I was sitting in our dinning room having extra maths lessons with Teacher Jenny… it also happens to be my mothers birthday… the plans were cancelled for that night, and everyone came to our house, we sat in front of the TV eating chinese take out watching CNN.

13. What’s your favorite tree?
I can’t say i’ve ever felt an emotional connection to a tree…?!

14. What’s the most interesting biography you’ve read?
Hmmm… Richard Bransons..?!

15. What do you order when you eat Chinese food?
I’m not a huge fan of chinese… i prefer japanese or thai.

16. What’s the best costume you’ve ever worn?
Hmmmm… i don’t know… The Princess dress at my 9th birthday…?! The Dorothy from the Wizard of Oz at my last birthday..?!?

17. What’s your least favorite word?
“Nice” I blame one of my high school english teachers who would FREAK if we used that work. It is such a pathetic word at the end of the day. When i use fine… i am truly indifferent to the conversation and the question being asked.

18. If you had to be named after one of the 50 states, which would it be?
Who know?!…that’s a silly question. A sillier than most question.

19. Who’s your favorite bear?
Russ Bears… the ballet bear i was once given.

20. Describe something that’s happened to you for which you have no explanation.
Hmmm…. i have no idea… there has been many things… life is all about just rolling with the experiences..

21. If you could travel anywhere in Africa, where would it be?
Right now… a game farm. That’s where i want to be.

22. What did you have for lunch yesterday?
Hmm.. Soup.. from woolies… something with meat balls in. Which was a mistake, because last night, at dinner… meat balls with an egg plant bake was served… i’m not really a FAN of meat balls on a good day. Let alone TWICE in one day.

23. Where do you go for advice?
Jees.. this depends on what the advice is i want… there are many places… my parents, my brother, friends, my therapist.. there is no one place.

24. Which do you use more often, the dictionary or the thesaurus?
Dictionary.. i have the app on my phone!!

25. Have you ever been snorkeling? Scuba diving?
Many times i’ve snorkled.. i’ve enver scuba dived.. unless you include being in the pool when my parents did their course..and breathing in their riggs… it’s not really the IT activity of the moment.. now is it?!

I must have been about 11, we were invited to a mother and daughter function at Pretoria girls High. At some point during the morning, we were in the chapel and the choir sang “Wind beneath my wings”.

As i stood there, next to my mother, with tears in my eyes… i reached for her hand. And she was crying to. At that point, i had no idea the power of the moment, and the words in the song. But as i sit here now, a good few years later, on mothers day, waiting for my mom while she has a massage – i know the power of a mother. My mother.

There has been days and years and moments in which i’ve fought it, sort my “freedom” my “independence” to do everything by myself, for myself… but the most spectacularly incredible thing about your parents is.. you always go back.

What i know for sure… you truly are the Wind Beneath my wings.