It might be…

Because i may have been thinking of you, lying next to me.. being massaged.

Hands on my body.. warm oils. Knowing you're lying there too.. feeling the warm oil..  thinking about me.

Thinking of your cock… hard knowing i was so close, naked… and you couldn't touch me.

My body…. full of oil, face down on the bed, my legs spread slightly.

My panties soaked.

xxx

Phenomenal Woman

Pretty women wonder where my secret lies.
I'm not cute or built to suit a fashion model's size
But when I start to tell them,
They think I'm telling lies.
I say,
It's in the reach of my arms
The span of my hips,
The stride of my step,
The curl of my lips.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

I walk into a room
Just as cool as you please,
And to a man,
The fellows stand or
Fall down on their knees.
Then they swarm around me,
A hive of honey bees.
I say,
It's the fire in my eyes,
And the flash of my teeth,
The swing in my waist,
And the joy in my feet.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

Men themselves have wondered
What they see in me.
They try so much
But they can't touch
My inner mystery.
When I try to show them
They say they still can't see.
I say,
It's in the arch of my back,
The sun of my smile,
The ride of my breasts,
The grace of my style.
I'm a woman

Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

Now you understand
Just why my head's not bowed.
I don't shout or jump about
Or have to talk real loud.
When you see me passing
It ought to make you proud.
I say,
It's in the click of my heels,
The bend of my hair,
the palm of my hand,
The need of my care,
'Cause I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

That Next week… i will ACTUALLY go to gym… As in.. get up EARLY enough.. that i make a class.. and not just arrive there around 7:45am walk into the gym, walk out… and head for coffee.

Yesterday… because right now, i'm still in  my gym sweats… And i planned posting this yesterday.

It's a pretty strange feeling… i'm attempting to work thru it. Listing what's on my mind

• The next in the photo challenge is a photo of your best friend.. i don't know if i have one of these.. my friends are all amazing, and very special to me. I have many many photo's of me, because well… taking pics of myself is a new hobby, but of me + BFF, well no. What shall i do here..
• The next thought on the BFF front is… i seem to be losing girlfriends… naturally i have to ask myself… i am the common factor here – what do i do… and do i need to actively go out and find new girlfriends… And shall i call the good Dr about this problem..
• And then i think…. fuck it… I'm a little tired of noticing my short comings and working on them – i'll think about this tomorrow…
• I'm going for a massage tomorrow, this excites me greatly. ehm.
• This work is doing my fucking head in. It's not that i can't do it, it's that really… it's awful. But we must do what we must do. The stress is huge.. drama drama… and all that shit..
• But really – what the fuck does it REALLY matter… tomorrow the sun will shine, and eveyone has their issues, and to them they feel so BIG and IMPOSSIBLE..but hey – at the end of the day, christmas will arrive, and so will next year…and the year after that. So, just make today count. No point in hiding behind the drama. It's constant. This is life.
• WHY do the buttons KEEP on coming off this top. I'm not a sewing kinda girl.. and i've ALREADY put two buttons back.
• The panties i'm wearing today are awful… in fact, they might jsut have to GO. now.
• How is it that no one told me about Hipstamatic before… or rather why is it i never LISTENED when i was told how amazing this it…?! I just LOVE it… And am having SO much fun with it.
• The Vag Wax is amazing.. i am loving it. Obsessively so.. in fact, i think i may have entered into a little sexomnia. Or maybe masturatomnia…

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

Nope, the feeling is still there.

Maybe i'm confusing it with hunger… maybe i need lunch.

A boy asked a girl to cook for him this weekend… And the idea, at first – really excited this girl… and then the reality of what she needed to do set in. A panic moment even. The girl pulled herself together, remembering what a smart girl she was… popped off to Fourno's and picked up some ready made soup, bread and cheese. The boy did warn the girl that he had to be up at some crazy hour the next morning, but as he loved the food, and found her 'cooking' amusing… he took her to bed. And that very early morning was worth it.

As many people accross the world, find religion early sunday mornings sitting in church… others don't. Some of use find our center, our calm, our perspective sitting out side, drinking coffee… orange juice.. watching those who co-inhabbit this world with us.  Messages, just as those from god… are also found… in the most interesting of places…

He has a fire place, gorgeous, warm, sexy and the perfect place for conversation, dates, moments to happen. Moments where conversation becomes seductive, things like… i'm not wearing any underwear… and …. did i mention that wax, not sure if you'd like it… get mentioned… where dresses get pushed up…and legs gets spread appart… where lips places kissing on thighs… test the smoothness..slip between lips… taste the moist warm….  reaction to the words which have been spoken…. and a girl get so caught up in the divine feelings and reactions she don't feel her touch against the hot fire until its a little too late…

Seeing the colours, the shades… i remember i've been here before. And how exactly the same it is… yet how completely different it is. And how comfortable and calming it just is.

In fact, i remember I remember watching porn.. long long ago – of a girl, on one of those deck chairs out by the pool. She was on her knees…ass in the air. Guys standing around her…watching as one fingered her and pressed a similar plug into her ass…altho that one was FAR bigger and glass.. i think…. that was very very sexy… i do think i came a few times watching that..

And also…

Teasing me… Playing with my cunt…enjoying how very wet you make me.  Sucking my clit into your mouth… Fucking my cunt with your mouth…again and again…

Sharing is still caring right… dahlings?!

Due to the hectic stressness of my life at the moment, i've decided that i require a little perspective, a little attempt to ensure that i don't get lost in everything.

So, in the mornings before work, i had off to gym and then stop off for a coffee.. before putting my big girl panties on to deal.

This morning i stumbled into gym, into a room i hadn't been into for a good while and before i could realise what Cathy (!?!) was saying to me "You're here for my class!!" i had a pair of dumbells in my hands and a stability ball attached to my ass.

It's now a good 5 hours since Cathy's!? class and the feeling has yet to return to parts of my body.

This is where mine were.

Sitting there… reaching my hand over, touching yours. Watching your face, the intensity… Kissing you on the lips as you stroke… feeling your other hand slide along my thigh and between my legs as I lean over you. Your fingers discover how wet i am, my lips trail down to the tip of your cock.

Your hand moves to the back of my head. My head lowers… Your fingers slide deeper.

The sun warm on my body… my fingers almost as deep.

xxx

• The holiday was amazing – gorgeously amazing.
• We did nothing except eat, drink, sleep, nap, listen to the iPod, swim.
• Everyone should take an Island holiday – they really do have a very special place in the world.
• Island people are tres friendly.

Things which they forget to mention, and you forget to think about in your excitement:

• The holiday is for a limited time – and you’re going to come home.
• There will be 1 million kids on the flight, it will be hectic, and busy – even though it is a 3 hour flight, it is going to feel worse than a European flight.
• Island holidays are extreme. It’s extremely impossible to order a cocktail at 12:05 and roll over for a nap once you’re home.
• You will be depressed once you get home.
• There is language issues… the taxi driver will make your life hard.. and ‘Port Lois for shopping’ will make him take you to every family member he has who has a shop for shopping THERE.

Things which i’ve realised about taking an Island holiday.

• Going with a girlfriend is nice, and it’s fun. Bless BT – But Island holidays make you want sex.
• A lot.
• While you’re lying at the pool warm in the sun, feeling lazy and content. You imagine the feeling of a hand on your thigh… or someone to lead you into the pool, and touch your inappropriately while no one seems to watch.
• When you stand in the 12 man shower – just before dinner… You imagine someone standing behind you, his hands cupping your breasts.
• When you have a few glasses of wine with dinner…walking back to the room, you imagine walking with someone…making a stop at the beach on one of the loungers…

*sigh*

Off to find a boy to take with her to the Islands…