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I have this feeling right now…

jhbprincess — Wed, 21 Jul 2010 10:08:26 +0000

Like i have something to say… but i just don't know what?

It's a pretty strange feeling… i'm attempting to work thru it. Listing what's on my mind

The next in the photo challenge is a photo of your best friend.. i don't know if i have one of these.. my friends are all amazing, and very special to me. I have many many photo's of me, because well… taking pics of myself is a new hobby, but of me + BFF, well no. What shall i do here..
The next thought on the BFF front is… i seem to be losing girlfriends… naturally i have to ask myself… i am the common factor here – what do i do… and do i need to actively go out and find new girlfriends… And shall i call the good Dr about this problem..
And then i think…. fuck it… I'm a little tired of noticing my short comings and working on them – i'll think about this tomorrow…
I'm going for a massage tomorrow, this excites me greatly. ehm.
This work is doing my fucking head in. It's not that i can't do it, it's that really… it's awful. But we must do what we must do. The stress is huge.. drama drama… and all that shit..
But really – what the fuck does it REALLY matter… tomorrow the sun will shine, and eveyone has their issues, and to them they feel so BIG and IMPOSSIBLE..but hey – at the end of the day, christmas will arrive, and so will next year…and the year after that. So, just make today count. No point in hiding behind the drama. It's constant. This is life.
WHY do the buttons KEEP on coming off this top. I'm not a sewing kinda girl.. and i've ALREADY put two buttons back.
The panties i'm wearing today are awful… in fact, they might jsut have to GO. now.
How is it that no one told me about Hipstamatic before… or rather why is it i never LISTENED when i was told how amazing this it…?! I just LOVE it… And am having SO much fun with it.
The Vag Wax is amazing.. i am loving it. Obsessively so.. in fact, i think i may have entered into a little sexomnia. Or maybe masturatomnia…

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

Nope, the feeling is still there.

Maybe i'm confusing it with hunger… maybe i need lunch.

Tic Toc…

jhbprincess — Mon, 19 Jul 2010 10:57:39 +0000

When i was younger, not that young mind you… and my grandmother & i were good friends – she used to enjoy giving me constant advice. On all topics..more often than not – not age appropriate at all. I suspect she used to do this as my aunt – her daughter - was a rebel… who never quited listened. Much.

Granny has since died.

But her advice lives on… and now and again as i do things in my life, and make choices – the advice she once gave me, pop's into my mind.

Right now i'm dealing with…

JHBP, you're going to get to an age where… you feel like you should have a child, like it's now something you need to do.

Get a Puppy.

*sigh*

I've never been on of those ga-ga kinda girls, the ones who had planned their weddings at the age of 8, were particularly sure that they were to meet the right boy, they'd date, he'd ask her to marry him… and then they'd have children.

This has never been me. I've never really given getting married and having children much thought. At all.

Except….. lately i've been contemplating the chidren part of the story.

I would possibly equate the current feeling i'm having to what a man of the cloth would refer to as a 'his calling'… You can't quite explain why it is you should be doing something… or want something…

But, there it is. Boof. Like Magic.

Something needs to change.

jhbprincess — Tue, 11 May 2010 11:25:45 +0000

I’m itching for change.

I’ve heard it said before when one person in a relationship “Checks out of the relationshop”…they’re “there” but not really. And at that point.. it all over. Things should ened right there and then.

Well i’ve checked out of this phase in mylife. I’m here…but not really really…silly pointless time wasting things* are what hold my attention atm. And as exciting as that is Monday through Tuesday.. wednesday i’m bored and somewhat unfulfilled with that.

My first instinct is to move… town/country/continent – but that’s not the issues… I love where i live, i’m a joburg girl, my family is here.. and i just bought that fucking car… So, moving location is pretty much not it.

It’s work.. of course it is… I’ve known for this for about a year now. I think for the first part of the year, i made a good show of forcing myself… but now.. i’m out.

Checked out.

Time to move along.

But where.. what.. how… This zone albeit unfulfilling is quite damn comfortable and requires minimal effort…as i sit here and type this at 1:11pm on a tuesday sitting in the sun.

*My 365 project, underwear, my car, my blog, my social life… of course not the men who entertain me.. you are in no way silly and pointless… You’re generally sexy and interesting.

Things you’d maybe not guess….

jhbprincess — Wed, 05 May 2010 12:51:12 +0000

I always crunch my albran smaller with another bowl before putting milk into it. Normal sized albran flakes are annoying, they’re a strange size, they fall off your spoon… This just will not do.

I will ALWAYS wash my hair first and the rest of the body last. The Veejayjay last. I have this awful thought of washing your body, rinsing it, and then the dirty water from another spot runs into the clean rinsed area… this just won’t do.

I sleep on the right hand side of the bed, with my duvet wrapped around my head. Think ca-coon. Come summer or winter, this is how i sleep. I just can’t fall asleep if there isn’t something around my neck. It must be a comfort thing.

The very first thing i do in the mornings is check my cell phone… News24, mail, sms, twitter – it’s obsessive i suspect… following that, i search for my glasses – as i’m blind. I make it to the bathroom… Life only really starts once i’m out the shower.

I am a supremely messy person at times, by sunday evening – if i’ve had a particularly hectic weekend, my bedroom resembles something close to downtown Bagdad. Clothes everywhere, shoes everywhere, underwear everywhere.

I have absolutely SHOCKING email inbox management habits. Stuff gets lost, i read a forget to respond. I read and it gets lost.

I am dyslexic… as is my father... I spent many years in remedial classes.. with a little concentration – i spell and write and read perfectly (see next point)

I have the concentration and attention span of a mature guppy fish. This used to bother me greatly, and i’d force myself to complete things, and stick to doing things… But as i’ve gotten older – i’ve realised.. just like an ADHD kid gets accepted. So. Should. I.

I love to blog… It reminds of the sounding board who was my therapist. Altho, now it’s really all about me, and i get to censor all comments. Which works quite nicely.

I love blogging about sex… because it, in itself is very sexy and sensual. There is the voyeur in me who enjoys knowing other people read… And there is the part of me who likes to share simply because it’s entertaining, and not enough people get it.

I like memories… this is a big part of why i blog. So i’ll remember. This is also why i take so very many photo’s.

I haven’t told my family i’m going to Europe. Because well, i’m a pussy – and things are pretty stressful around town… and i don’t need them stressing about that too.

I really do enjoy sex. Trying new things… the adventure of it… learning from someone, the build up and excitement, the goosebumps, the taste…

I have favourite people... a lot like other people have favourite food, and movies and songs…

…. but then again… these are things that you and you and you…. maybe know

What a blogger does to pass time.

jhbprincess — Thu, 18 Feb 2010 12:58:38 +0000

1. How old will you be in five years?

Hmm.. i’m going to be 31. Jesus. thirty one.

2. Who did you spend at least two hours with today?

The blokes i work with. Generally they’re a hoot when we’re not suffering cabin fever.

3. How tall are you?

Hmmm.. i think like 5’6 and i think that’s in feet. i could be wrong. I’m pretty average girl height.

4. What do you look forward to most in the next six weeks?

Hmmm… well there MIGHT be that trip to Europe…and the offices and changes… and life… and things… And getting laid… if that doesn’t happen in the next six weeks… i’m just giving up.

5. What’s the last movie you saw?

The secret life of Pippa Lee

6. Who was the last person you called?

Ah… my mom <3

7. Who was the last person to call you?

The domo… to check something about a pair of jeans i tossed out.

8. What was the last text message you received?

“But then am i wrong in assuming you backed off?”

9. Who was the last person to leave you a voicemail?

Who knows.. i hate voice mail… probably my aunt. She often leaves them.

10. Do you prefer to call or text?

Depends on the person… but probably Text… because it’s just so much easier.

11. What were you doing at 12am last night?

I had just put my light out and rested my head on the pillow

12. Are your parents married/separated/divorced?

They are still married.

13. When is the last time you saw your mom?

This morning.

14. What color are your eyes?

They are blue

15. What time did you wake up today?

My alarm went off at 5:30 am and i got out of bed closer to 7am

16. What are you reading right now?

I just finished a particularly shit book. I wanted something light and no brainer to read. So i bought a Jackie Collins novel. It ended up being one of those read a page skip 5 pages affair. I am Book Unhappy right now.

17. What is your favorite christmas song?

The Christmas song of course.

18. Where is your favorite place to be?

Well i don’t know. Somewhere fun..and relaxing..with people who i like.

19. Where is your least favorite place to be?

I have no idea…. somewhere where i’m uncomfortable.

20. Where would you go if you could go anywhere?

Right now..? Hmmm. i’d go, for a coffee…and then home.

21. Where do you think you’ll be in 10 years?

I have absolutely no idea.

22. Do you tan or burn?

Burn

23. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child?

Hmmm… my parents leaving?

24. What was the last thing that really made you laugh?

Hmmm…. I’m not sure.

25. How many TVs do you have in your house?

Three. One we only really watch. One gets used for xbox and the like. Sometimes.

26. How big is your bed?

It’s a double bed

27. Do you have a laptop or desktop computer?

A laptop of course.

29. What color are your sheets?

White of course.

30. How many pillows do you sleep with?

One. I’m never comfortable tho.

31. What is your favorite season?

Autumn and spring….maybe spring most.

32. What do you like about Autumn?

The fact it’s warm but cool… the colours…

33. What do you like about winter?

Snuggling up and keeping warm… hot chocolate.. stews…

Menopause

jhbprincess — Fri, 08 Jan 2010 15:38:38 +0000

This is something I am currently suffering from*.

I get hot flushes – a lot… My moods have taken a step into the dark site. I don’t feel fabulous. I have the most interesting thing happening with my skin AND the little fine hairs on my chin – in fact I’d rather not talk about them.

I am a little concerned about this… so much so I’ve made contact with my gynae, seen her receptionist as well as Dora at the Lancet lab**.

We wait in anticipation of results.

*Of course I’m not really suffering from menopause – i’m twenty six after all. I just enjoy being overly dramatic. It entertains me.

**Dora’s cousin Joe is going to test the hormone levels in my blood and my thyroid … as the good Dr as well as myself suspect that the pill I’m currently on, has become too strong for me. Apparently this happens.

I have a fantasy right now

jhbprincess — Thu, 26 Nov 2009 09:40:18 +0000

A simple fantasy actually…

Of being fetched at the office. Right now. Told we’re going away… told that i need nothing where we were going.

Getting into the car with you, and driving. Driving well out of JHB. Talking and driving. My shoes off, your hand on my thigh. Stealing kisses now and again.

Getting to our destination. A lodge. Out in the bush. Lovely, open, with a huge bed, a huge bath, a private swimming pool… and quiet. With no one around for miles.

Hot and sweaty we arrive and strip naked… into the huge outdoor shower. Where the cool water falls over us as we stand there, touching each other.

We move from the shower, with towels around us… to the bed. I lay on the bed, as you open a bottle of ice cold champagne and offer me glass.

Putting a pillow behind my head taking the glass… you lie between my legs… the towel falls, your chest resting on me. We talk. We drink. Now and again you drop Champagne on me and then slowly lick it off.

I continue telling you stories… and you drop the cool champagne lower and lower until you’ve licked your way… between my legs.

There’d be a breeze over us… and from the bed we could hear nothing but nature… and animals.

Sliding up my body… kissing as you go… Sliding into me as you kiss my lips. My legs wrapping around your ass, pulling you deeper in me.

Slowly at first… and then more frantic, we’d move together.

Finally falling asleep right there.

Waxing Habits

jhbprincess — Tue, 24 Nov 2009 08:05:36 +0000

Once a month i find myself at TheBodyShop* for the monthly FWP** – as no doubt everyone who knows me has noticed it’s a required monthly stop… one i’ve been doing for many many years, and one – god willing, i will continue to do.

But i digress – the reason for this post is… When it comes to that time of the month – i find myself in great ponderment over the Wax. Do i go all off, landing strip, neatly trimmed and shaped… or clean on the underneath, a little at the top.

I am quite easy on this front… at the end of the day – the decision is usually made based on, my mood, the mood of N.*** the activities for the week, the season and exacty how late am i for this appointment.

What i am often left wondering as N. leans over my veejayjay and so lovingly puts her hand on my thigh - of which i’m sure she does many times in a day… is how do other woman handle this.

I know there are shavers out there… not something i’ve tried.. i imagine it to be itchy, and red and no fun if you skip a day… There are the pluckers – which is down right time consuming a stupid… the epilators (?) – like plucking, but with a little machine that does it quickly. Fucking painful i imagine. Laser hair removal – i’m not sure about this one… i’ve have a few friends who do this… some love it – some saw no difference.

This morning i am sporting the neatly trimmed and shaped look.

* Name of salon has been changed to protect those who work there

** Facial… Wax… Pedicure

*** N – the most amazing pedicurist/waxer.

10 things at 10am

jhbprincess — Mon, 23 Nov 2009 08:36:14 +0000

The excitement for my up coming trip to Europe is being huge. I can’t wait. I have decided i need to do a list of things, which i want to while there. Think… Buy French Knickers in france… Take a Bicyle tour in Amsterdam. ( am open to suggestions…)

I am feeling VERY low at the moment, i think this might be the result of a end of the year stress + a few other things.

I have decided that i am going to get through this – by being super healthy.

So, as of this morning – we’re on a detox. No white carbs, no fizzy drinks, no sugar. Lots of water, lots of fruit, lots of veg.

My pantie report is doing quite well… appart from *that* slip – where i did buy NEW underwear, i’ve been doing rather well. I do of course, have underwear to last me well into next year.

This weekend – i saw a very good… yet very distrubing movie. The stoning of Soraya M. It was unbelievable. And tragic. And horrible.

I need to find another source of employment next year… or diversify the one i have. Something needs to be done. I’m not 100% sure just yet – but i can feel it… In my bones.

The MMS on my phone works now… This excites me greatly.

I”m going for a wax, pedi, facial this evening… This doesn’t excite me – as i’m not sure what wax i’m feeling… i don’t know what colour i’m feeling on the toes.. and well – teh facial is never as good as it sounds.

This week, could be rather fun… As long as supper club is on thursday night not wednesday night – as i have a Christmas cocktail party for a product launch on wednesday night!

And so starts the Silly Season…xxx

The conclusion to the 2526 List.

jhbprincess — Tue, 03 Nov 2009 08:39:59 +0000

Bungee jump.

Now this – I had planned for the up coming Friday. With my brother, but as he almost killed himself in his car over the weekend… I’m not up for tempting fate JUST yet.

Buy Property

God damn recession. Fuckit.

Visit my aunt in Belgium

This hasn’t happened.. but it WILL happen next year. Back on the list.

Plan ATLEAST 5 get away weekends for the year

I’m not too sure if I got to 5, lets see, there was the Cape Town trip with the Aunt, there was *that* trip to the Drakensburg, there was the trip to Nelspruit, and the camping adventure. 4. I’d say not to bad.

Fall in love

Ah… this I did. And it was wonderful. And he was and remains amazing.

Have dinner in Soweto

Hmmm.. complete fail here. I haven’t got any closer to doing this than when I wrote this list. Conclusion – on next years list.

Send 5 people flowers

I sent to… my mother, the boy person I fell in love with. Another boy who I didn’t fall in love with but held my attention… and hmmm…. Ummm… 3 out of 5 is a pass by any ones standards…

Ask a bloke out on a date

Yip… this I did. And the bloke loved it. Lesson learnt – sometimes, boys like you to ask them out.

Fly somewhere for the day

Nope… this I didn’t get right. It shall make the 2627 list, but maybe rather as… fly somewhere for an absolute purpose…

Drive to Durban to see the sunrise

Jaar… I don’t know about this one… what was I thinking.. in a car for 6 hours… to Durban.. which is not my favourite place on any day.

Corrected to rather… “Stay up, to watch the sunrise with someone really interesting.”

Compete in a sporting event

Yes… fuck. I’m ambitious. But we’ll leave this one in. Because well… I live in hope.

Make 4 new friends

This I have done. I have made many many friends this year. From the BFF, to BigTits, the Boy person, the new girl from PE and supperclub… and then some.

This goes back on the list for next year.

Learn to drive a Forklift

This i should have done – it’s the easiest to do. As there are a few down stairs, but it’s turned out to be the least possible to do. I’m sure at some stage i’ll get this right – but for now. It’s not done. And it’s not going back on the list.

Have anal sex

Now… when I put this on the list – I don’t think I gave it much thought.. I just put it there. And of course, as we know… it has been checked. Done.

Live out one dark fantasy with a willing partner

Done… Did I write about this tho…? I think I did. I’m sure I did.

Re-read Gone with the Wind

Stupid… and no. I’ve only just started reading again. I did watch the movie sometime this year – that should count for something…

Make a video of something I love

Hmmm… Yes, well,… no – this has not been done. I’m going to file it under the lack of interest in doing this. ALTHOUGH – if I did happen to get a 3Gs for my birthday, I could do this quite easily. Hold on. In fact if I just updated my current iPhone – I could do this.

Learn a foreign language

Well, I had these grand plans of buying the book on CD to learn French. And then well – that didn’t happen. Well I did write my car off. Anyway the year is done – and I haven’t done it… safe to say. I’m not going to.

Have a naked man cook me dinner

I never quite got the naked part right… but I did have a man cook me lots of dinners. Lots of really amazing dinners. So, as judge and jury of this list. I’d say that ticks this one off the list.

Have coffee/dinner/lunch/sex with Charles

This I haven’t done. And I think it’ll make next years list. Because well… I don’t know why I haven’t done this. Although I’m pretty sure he knows.

Plan a cuppa for cancer function

This did not get done… Should get added to the list, edited to plan a charity function – this makes far more sense.

Put a plan together for my training centre

This has not been done.. But, actual training rooms are currently being built. Can we say… ass about face…? And a plan should be put into place.

Learn to Weld

Another WTF. Although I did meet a very interesting artist who might just give me lessons.

Have sex with Sven

Hmm… another one not done, I should ask Sven if this should make next years lists. Maybe he’s just over the idea of sex with me.

Improve my golf

Ah… that golf club that I bought, which stood in my office… is still there. I’m not sure how I feel about this one. Part of me would still like to give it a good go, and another part of me – well, I think the word is indifferent.

Right so, as i sit here right now at my desk, taking a preBirthday personal day - i’m happy about the list. It was, with out a doubt the best thing i did last year. The best birthday gift i gave myself. So much fun.

I sit here, the day before my 26th birthday puting together the 2627 list. So, far i have 14 items. I couldn’t be more excited if i tried. (I might take suggestions for the other 12.)

To the people, the world, the moments, the hours, the events, the weather, the music, the food, the suggestions, the excitement that made this year and list possible – i thank you. xxx